Be The Tree!

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Lately I’ve been walking up from dreams that involve someone or someones speaking badly about me. Usually I am right there, they know I’m there and do it anyway speaking in a sotto voice.

When I wake up, I am in a bad mood, and feel bad about myself. Most of the time I can’t recall who it was in the dream who “didn’t like me.”

I had thought about looking it up on a dream interpretation website but it didn’t involve, a snake, or a hawk, or being chased or any other symbol. I realized this morning that my dream is symbolic, so here is my interpretation.

The dream is showing me that other’s peoples opinions of me aren’t real; they have nothing to do with me and everything to do with them. Yet I live in a world where I often care more about what others think than what I think of myself.

Not always. Not in every situation. But others’ opinions being far weightier than my own seems to come up at the most inopportune times. The times I’m at my  lowest, the times I’m hardest on myself, the times I am caught up in that negative self-talk loop we all have. 

I think this is the universe’s way of presenting me with an opportunity, even if it doesn’t seem so at the time. What’s the opportunity? It’s the opportunity to confront what I will call a “fugue” state, my fog, my dream state. A state of being when I am not connected to who I truly am, to the goodness of my soul, to the difference I make, but to my interpretation of the world around me. Hence I use the word “fugue” loosely - not in the psychiatric definition but to reference an experience of fleeing from my own goodness or Godliness.

Don Miguel Ruiz talks about each of us living in a dream state. A state where we aren’t connected to the reality of who we are, or who each other is or the goodness in the world. Each of us living inside a dream world interacting with each other’s dream worlds.

So perhaps this dream is meant to show me that whether someone doesn’t like me in a dream or in reality - it is all a dream.

What matters most is who I am for myself. Can I stand firmly connected to my greatness no matter what anyone else is saying or doing? Can I be like a very tall tree with my roots sunk deep inside Mother Earth, my branches stretched far up into Father Sky and when the wind blows or the rain falls or the lightening strikes understand that that is the business of the rain, and the lightening and the wind.

My job is to keep being the majestic tree.

#positivity #beatree

Jen Cokenpos, sel